wakeup.

I should start writing again.

I need some inspiration.

It's been a while...

The goal I made last month, in my last post,
I feel like I have so far failed.
I haven't embraced every possible second.
Even now, I could be out with a friend,
and yet, here I am, sitting in my
small lonely house, writing about it.
I've spent more time with the people I work with
then the people I consider my best friends.
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I don't know where I am going with this.

the world is up-side-down

I have too much time on my hands. I
can't help but continue to miss my
Mainstage family, the friends that
I've made. But I also miss my friends.
The ones that I have so far neglected.
I need to spend these last few months
with every one of them.

It has all come to an end now.

I feel like there is this space in my heart
that for the past three years I haven't noticed
because it has always been filled.
But now I can feel it, growing, expanding.
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I never thought the end would be this hard.
I always assumed that there was no possible way
that I could ever lose touch with any of you.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
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Not a single person outside of this program
could ever understand how much
each and every last person means to me.
The only good word for us is "family".
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To those of you who are continuing this journey:
I wish you luck, you are all so talented.
You are all headed for incredible futures,
and I will be at the show next year, cheering.
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And to my fellow seniors:
Where would I be without each of you?
We have all come so far these past three years,
and we are all going to do great things.
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I love you all so much, and the thought of losing you
hurts more then I could ever have guessed.
We have all gotten so close this year,
you all make up an amazing family that
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I CAN NEVER FORGET.

blue

English is extremely difficult for me.

I want to write something good, really good,

but I think I'm trying too hard.

Maybe I'll write about something

that I never really thought a lot about,

but that has been a part of who I am

for the past 14 years.

one chapter ends, the next begins.

I've spent the majority of my time this past month
with everyone in Mainstage,
and all the rest of my time was spent
studying like crazy.
I've grown close to pretty much all of you this year,
and even if some of your immaturities bother me,
I still love all of you,
and I'm sad to see this chapter of my life end.
It's been a great 3 years,
and this is definitely going to be a show to drop jaws.
We are all so talented and we have all grown so much.
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Although it is sad to say goodbye,
I cannot wait to have time to spend with
my best friends,
that I have so far neglected in all these stresses.
We only have a few more months together,
but I plan on making them the best ones we've had yet.
So to my favourite best friends:
I'm so sorry we haven't been spending a ton of time together,
and I miss you dearly,
and thank you for sticking by me and still loving me!
I love you all so much
and I'll see you soon :)

speak up.

My blog has become a place of silence.

But since today is the last day of semester one,

I'll have some free time in the next week or so.

Maybe I'll be able to think of something

interesting to say, after all this time.