i'll know soon enough

So you know, I burried you on that stage,
And I took the step over the golden line.
That was the very first step towards getting over you.
And I won't turn back.


I'm starting to worry if this is true.
I guess I;ll find out in a few days,
when I see you for the first time
since I crossed the beautiful golden line.

imissit&imissyou.

It's such a terrible feeling,
to feel like you don't belong.
I feel like the people who
I connect best with
and that understand who I am,
are hours away.
I don't want to lose touch,
and I hope that I'll see
everyone again.
Until then, I'll get by,
pretending I agree with this
nonsense around me,
and pretending that I like it here,
when, really,
I can't wait to go back.

I'm finally reading Harry Potter!

I feel like I'm just wasting my summer away.
All I do is wait to go to work,
and work isn't even decent anymore.

I miss my friends,
they're all busy with summer plans.

I miss Artstrek,
and hopefully the Calgary reunion will go good,
and hopefully I'll be able to attend the one in Edmonton,
but who knows?

If you ever feel lost, look here.

I wrote this while at Artstrek
And it's a really great reminder for me.

Friday July 16, 2010

I love dance parties, and I love friendships.
I love waking up early and super activities.
I love these summer classes and the bruises on my knees.
I love creativity and the freedom to explore.
And I would also love to keep this state of mind,
For the rest of my years.

Frankenstein!

Best week of my life so far.

"Thick, black, rain,
Falling on the
City on fire!"

"Go to sleep my brave young boy,
There's nothing more for you to do,
Go to sleep my clever boy,
Tomorrow belongs to you."

"Oh if I had wings,
Just like Noah's dove,
I would fly away,
To the one I love,
I would fly away,
To the one I love."

"Fallow the leada,
leada, leada,
Fallow the leada,
*CLAP*CLAP*CLAP*
Jump and wave!"


It's going to be weird to
wake up tomorrow morning
and not see all those
wonderful people.
I love and miss you all!!!

I wish you would be there with me

TOMORROW
will be
a great
day.

I'll miss you though.

stampede.

I love music
and Down With Webster,
and rides,
and fireworks,
and bright lights,
and mini donuts,
and friends,
and pictures,
and cowboy hats,
and I think I miss you.



P.S. I'm praying for you.

ineedtogetaway

I cannot wait to leave!
3 more days.

sing me something I need!

Work was so slow this evening,
and usually this results in
super boring night of
word searches and too many breaks.
But tonight I got to spend time with you
so it was the perfect shift :)

AND

I suppose I've realized that
I love you so much,
but as a really good friend.
I know we can never be anything more,
but it's okay because
I have an incredible best friend.

imluckytobeinlovewithmybestfriend

I went for a walk in the rain today,
and it was beautiful.
I haven't enjoyed the rain for so long,
it always brings me down.
But not today, and I wished you were with me,
not because I was lonely,
but because I knew you would appreciate
the perfect storm.


p.s. I've missed you, it was good to talk to you again.

artstrek:)

I'm waiting for the good.
Six more days.

I love you, but...

I'm starting to wonder if you were really worth waiting th past two and a half years for. I think you really are amazing, but that doesn't change your inablility to realize what has always been right infront of you.
I feel like there is so much more for me, if I could just let you go.

This is a little different for me.

I can't help but fall for who I'm finally seeing you as.
That being said, how could you ever feel the same?

numberone

I was extremely bored this evening and decided to read a good friend's blog. I read about 40 of his posts and was blown away by how incredible and beautiful his writing is. For the past 10 or so years that I've known him, I had no idea that he had all of this amazing passion inside. It all seems so crazy to me.

I started this blog because I realised how much of a release it is to just write everything down. I dont care if people read what I have to say, but it will feel great to just put it all out there and take that step towards letting go.

Lets learn to fly.