carving pumpkins is super awesome.

move on, move out.

This stress just isn't going to go away.

Graduation can't come soon enough.

lets learn to fly

gotta love days like these...

Two months in,
and I've already
had my first
mental breakdown
due to stress.
AWESOME.

lets learn to fly

you're really worth nothing.

Isn't it your job to ecorage confidence?

Because until this year,

I felt like I was doing good.

Now I dont even want to do this.

I feel like I can't do this.

You're making me hate

the one thing that I loved to do most.

lets learn to fly

nights and smiles.

The
snow
was
lovely
this
evening.

stars

This was a good day.
Next year will be a
great year.

all you need is love.

Off to plan my future.

I don't know if I'm ready.

lets learn to fly

reunions are fantastic.

"EEEEHHHHYYYY"

We yell and scream,

and we don't care.

We hold hands

and talk to strangers.

We drink hot chocolate

and throw darts at a

spinning wheel.

We shoot paint balls

at dancing mascots,

and fist pump in the

strobe lights.

We take crazy pictures

and laugh

the night

away.

lets learn to fly

what you don't know you just gotta believe

I just want to sleep the days away.
I just want to believe
that everything will be okay.

lets learn to fly

we were sittin there by the water

Why did I choose to do so much this year?
I have no time for anything,
and I am being punished for it.
I need to manage my time,
and do better,
because I know I can.

lets learn to fly

another day, another destiny

Yes, it's true,
friends come and go.
It's human nature.
And we get through it,
and it's not a big deal.

But to tell me that,

because one friend

drops me,

all of the ones who

have stuck around

will drop me as well,

is rude and inconsiderate.

I love the friends I have,

and I like to believe

that people are good.

lets learn to fly

point me in the right direction.

I'm working so hard,
Spending every free minute
attempting to get it right.
Attempting to make things
easier and better.
Why is it that I can't get this right?
I've been doing this for 9 years,
what's different now?
The pressure and the criticism
really do cut deep,
even if it's constructive.
I'll keep working for it,
but I'm losing steam each day.

lets learn to fly

not without reason.

I'm feeling a ton better lately.
Gotta love the way mainstagers
make everything good again.

lets learn to fly

love,love,love

Next weekend will be a good one.

I can't wait to see some Artstrekers again.

I've missed you all very much!

oh, if i had wings!

I've been missing you a ton lately.

I wish we could be closer.

We will see each other soon,

I hope.

lets learn to fly

incredible.

I can't wait to be a mom.

I see my brother,

and he's never been happier.

I want to feel the joy

of knowing you created

something so beautiful.

-

lets learn to fly

i need a little love.

I'm too tired
to think of something to say.

lets learn to fly

you make everything good again.

That child is so beautiful.

Just being able to

hold her,

and see her,

it lifts my spirit.

Seeing the joy she brings

to her dad,

to her mom,

to her whole family,

is incredible.

How could I ever leave?

I want to watch

her grow up,

help her make

good decisions.

I want to make sure

that she knows love

and happiness.

You are beautiful.

You are a miracle.

You have nothing to worry about.

-Ihliyah Jade-

no exceptions

This bothers me.

Stop revolving your life around

something that isn't going to happen.

People need time to heal,

no exceptions.

Think things through,

You know you're in the wrong,

I didn't do anything, neither did he.

People need time to heal,

no exceptions.

lets learn to fly

it's time for us all to decide who we are

What's more important when you leave high school?

Do you move far away with all your friends?

Or do you stay close and watch your family grow older?

-

I think I need to stay close

I want to be there for my brothers and sisters,

And my new born neice.

-

Welcome to this world, Ihliyah.

happy thanksgiving!

I'm thankful for...

The family I have,

even though they yell and fight,

The job I have,

even if there are bad days,

The school I go to,

even if it stresses me out,

The show I'm in,

even if it is a ton of work,

The things I have,

even if it seems like not enough sometimes,

And lastly, the friends that I have,

even if they aren't thankful for me.

let's learn to fly

i will change everything and make this perfect again

If you really wanted me around,

Wouldn't you make more of an effort?

I feel like people that I don't know very well

Are better friends then the ones who know

The most about me.

If you've ever felt this way,

You know

How lonely the days get.

lets learn to fly.

the fire in your heart is out.

How does the mind work?

And why does it differ between each of us?

How is it that one persons perseption of right and wrong is different from another?

How does one decide when another has done wrong to them?

And why does that person act as though you did something horrid like killing their family pet?

How does that person leave you to try and put the pieces together?

And what if that person doesn't even leave any pieces to put back together?

I hope that you read this,

and give me some pieces to put together,

so that maybe I can figure out

what is going on in your head

to make you give up a friendship of 4 years.

As far as I know,

I've been nothing but a good person lately.

But our minds are all different, right?

i'll get by.

So many things to do.

I need to get my life in order,

but there is so much,

and not enough time to work it all out.

im sorry, but i don't quite understand.

I never did anything to anyone,

And yet, I keep getting shot down.

Did I do something,

and just not realize it?

I wish someone would let me know.

I mean it's only grade 12,

and, after this year, I may not see you

for months and months.

drop it.

I am so sick of your drunken shit.
Leave it alone.
I'm not doing anything to you.
Stop bitching about every little thing!

sleepless nights.

Ignore it, and it will go away.
There's some truth behind it.
Well, at least I hope so.

call my name, i'll be there.

I thought I had everything figured out.

I thought I knew exactly what I wanted.

Now I can't decide what is right, and what is wrong.

I can't decide what is more important.

For the first time in a while,

I just don't know what I'm going to do.

i've missed you s.d :)

This day couldn't have gone any better.

who will be strong and stand with me?

The bad things,
they make me sick to my stomach.
The good things,
they never last very long.
The smiles,
They are usually fake.


I have high hopes
that things will get better,
but what does 'better' mean?
Maybe my definition
is too complex.