Saturday, October 30, 2010

Friday, October 29, 2010

move on, move out.

This stress just isn't going to go away.
Graduation can't come soon enough.
lets learn to fly

Thursday, October 28, 2010

gotta love days like these...

Two months in,
and I've already
had my first
mental breakdown
due to stress.

lets learn to fly

you're really worth nothing.

Isn't it your job to ecorage confidence?
Because until this year,
I felt like I was doing good.
Now I dont even want to do this.
I feel like I can't do this.
You're making me hate
the one thing that I loved to do most.
lets learn to fly

Monday, October 25, 2010

Sunday, October 24, 2010

all you need is love.

Off to plan my future.
I don't know if I'm ready.
lets learn to fly

reunions are fantastic.

We yell and scream,
and we don't care.
We hold hands
and talk to strangers.
We drink hot chocolate
and throw darts at a
spinning wheel.
We shoot paint balls
at dancing mascots,
and fist pump in the
strobe lights.
We take crazy pictures
and laugh
the night
lets learn to fly

Friday, October 22, 2010

what you don't know you just gotta believe

I just want to sleep the days away.
I just want to believe
that everything will be okay.

lets learn to fly

Thursday, October 21, 2010

we were sittin there by the water

Why did I choose to do so much this year?
I have no time for anything,
and I am being punished for it.
I need to manage my time,
and do better,
because I know I can.

lets learn to fly

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

another day, another destiny

Yes, it's true,
friends come and go.
It's human nature.
And we get through it,
and it's not a big deal.

But to tell me that,
because one friend
drops me,
all of the ones who
have stuck around
will drop me as well,
is rude and inconsiderate.

I love the friends I have,
and I like to believe
that people are good.
lets learn to fly

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

point me in the right direction.

I'm working so hard,
Spending every free minute
attempting to get it right.
Attempting to make things
easier and better.
Why is it that I can't get this right?
I've been doing this for 9 years,
what's different now?
The pressure and the criticism
really do cut deep,
even if it's constructive.
I'll keep working for it,
but I'm losing steam each day.

lets learn to fly

not without reason.

I'm feeling a ton better lately.
Gotta love the way mainstagers
make everything good again.

lets learn to fly

Sunday, October 17, 2010


Next weekend will be a good one.
I can't wait to see some Artstrekers again.
I've missed you all very much!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

oh, if i had wings!

I've been missing you a ton lately.
I wish we could be closer.
We will see each other soon,
I hope.
lets learn to fly

Friday, October 15, 2010


I can't wait to be a mom.
I see my brother,
and he's never been happier.
I want to feel the joy
of knowing you created
something so beautiful.
lets learn to fly

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

you make everything good again.

That child is so beautiful.
Just being able to
hold her,
and see her,
it lifts my spirit.
Seeing the joy she brings
to her dad,
to her mom,
to her whole family,
is incredible.
How could I ever leave?
I want to watch
her grow up,
help her make
good decisions.
I want to make sure
that she knows love
and happiness.
You are beautiful.
You are a miracle.
You have nothing to worry about.
-Ihliyah Jade-

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

no exceptions

This bothers me.
Stop revolving your life around
something that isn't going to happen.
People need time to heal,
no exceptions.
Think things through,
You know you're in the wrong,
I didn't do anything, neither did he.
People need time to heal,
no exceptions.
lets learn to fly

Monday, October 11, 2010

it's time for us all to decide who we are

What's more important when you leave high school?
Do you move far away with all your friends?
Or do you stay close and watch your family grow older?
I think I need to stay close
I want to be there for my brothers and sisters,
And my new born neice.
Welcome to this world, Ihliyah.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

happy thanksgiving!

I'm thankful for...
The family I have,
even though they yell and fight,
The job I have,
even if there are bad days,
The school I go to,
even if it stresses me out,
The show I'm in,
even if it is a ton of work,
The things I have,
even if it seems like not enough sometimes,
And lastly, the friends that I have,
even if they aren't thankful for me.
let's learn to fly

Saturday, October 9, 2010

i will change everything and make this perfect again

If you really wanted me around,
Wouldn't you make more of an effort?
I feel like people that I don't know very well
Are better friends then the ones who know
The most about me.
If you've ever felt this way,
You know
How lonely the days get.

lets learn to fly.

Friday, October 8, 2010

the fire in your heart is out.

How does the mind work?
And why does it differ between each of us?
How is it that one persons perseption of right and wrong is different from another?
How does one decide when another has done wrong to them?
And why does that person act as though you did something horrid like killing their family pet?
How does that person leave you to try and put the pieces together?
And what if that person doesn't even leave any pieces to put back together?
I hope that you read this,
and give me some pieces to put together,
so that maybe I can figure out
what is going on in your head
to make you give up a friendship of 4 years.
As far as I know,
I've been nothing but a good person lately.
But our minds are all different, right?

Thursday, October 7, 2010

i'll get by.

So many things to do.
I need to get my life in order,
but there is so much,
and not enough time to work it all out.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

im sorry, but i don't quite understand.

I never did anything to anyone,
And yet, I keep getting shot down.
Did I do something,
and just not realize it?
I wish someone would let me know.
I mean it's only grade 12,
and, after this year, I may not see you
for months and months.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

drop it.

I am so sick of your drunken shit.
Leave it alone.
I'm not doing anything to you.
Stop bitching about every little thing!

Monday, October 4, 2010

sleepless nights.

Ignore it, and it will go away.
There's some truth behind it.
Well, at least I hope so.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

call my name, i'll be there.

I thought I had everything figured out.
I thought I knew exactly what I wanted.
Now I can't decide what is right, and what is wrong.
I can't decide what is more important.
For the first time in a while,
I just don't know what I'm going to do.

i've missed you s.d :)

This day couldn't have gone any better.

Friday, October 1, 2010

who will be strong and stand with me?

The bad things,
they make me sick to my stomach.
The good things,
they never last very long.
The smiles,
They are usually fake.

I have high hopes
that things will get better,
but what does 'better' mean?
Maybe my definition
is too complex.