The goal I made last month, in my last post, I feel like I have so far failed. I haven't embraced every possible second. Even now, I could be out with a friend, and yet, here I am, sitting in my small lonely house, writing about it. I've spent more time with the people I work with then the people I consider my best friends. - I don't know where I am going with this.
I have too much time on my hands. I can't help but continue to miss my Mainstage family, the friends that I've made. But I also miss my friends. The ones that I have so far neglected. I need to spend these last few months with every one of them.
I feel like there is this space in my heart that for the past three years I haven't noticed because it has always been filled. But now I can feel it, growing, expanding. - I never thought the end would be this hard. I always assumed that there was no possible way that I could ever lose touch with any of you. I couldn't have been more wrong. - Not a single person outside of this program could ever understand how much each and every last person means to me. The only good word for us is "family". - To those of you who are continuing this journey: I wish you luck, you are all so talented. You are all headed for incredible futures, and I will be at the show next year, cheering. - And to my fellow seniors: Where would I be without each of you? We have all come so far these past three years, and we are all going to do great things. - I love you all so much, and the thought of losing you hurts more then I could ever have guessed. We have all gotten so close this year, you all make up an amazing family that - I CAN NEVER FORGET.
I've spent the majority of my time this past month with everyone in Mainstage, and all the rest of my time was spent studying like crazy. I've grown close to pretty much all of you this year, and even if some of your immaturities bother me, I still love all of you, and I'm sad to see this chapter of my life end. It's been a great 3 years, and this is definitely going to be a show to drop jaws. We are all so talented and we have all grown so much. - Although it is sad to say goodbye, I cannot wait to have time to spend with my best friends, that I have so far neglected in all these stresses. We only have a few more months together, but I plan on making them the best ones we've had yet. So to my favourite best friends: I'm so sorry we haven't been spending a ton of time together, and I miss you dearly, and thank you for sticking by me and still loving me! I love you all so much and I'll see you soon :)